Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Sailing On


I remember not too long ago writing a blog about how life is like an ocean and you need to sail it to see where it takes you. You never know what is going to happen to you or where you're going to end up. Sometimes it's good and sometimes it's bad. Life is full of surprises, you just never know.

Last night I ended the relationship I was in for the past four months. It didn't end well, but I am much better off without him. I am hurting a lot from it, but as time goes by, I will get over it. Everyone goes through heartbreak at least once in their life; it makes me feel a lot better knowing I'm not alone in this.

I feel an empty space in my heart, but like I said before, with time, it will heal up again. Everything happens for a reason, I like to think. And I think with this there was a great reason behind it that I might never know. My mother told me today that once a door closes, another one opens. I trust her and I think she's right. I just have to wait for the next door to open and carry on with life.


Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Friends Forever


You never know who you will meet in your life or even come across. Mostly everyone in this world has a best friend. No matter the age, color, race, gender, or anything; you have a best friend. Some people lose touch with their "best friend" or even become enemies or strangers. It breaks my heart when I hear about fallen and broken friendships. Thinking about it scares me because my biggest fear is to lose my best friend.

When I was 12 years old I had no idea their would be a new girl in my town. The first time I saw her was at my seventh grade orientation in the high school. Seeing her, I had no idea how important she would be to me in the future or even be my friend. We were complete opposites; absolutely nothing in common. How could someone like her change my entire life?

The first week of school I gave her my house phone number. (I didn't own a cell phone back then) She would call my house every single afternoon and night. I thought she was totally weird and I didn't understand why she wanted to chill with me so badly. She was in a lot of my classes and we would talk a lot. I was having my 13th birthday party and as a joke an old friend said "you should invite that weird girl that is always calling you to your party." And I did.

After that, the rest was history; we were attached at the hip. We were with each other every single day after school and did everything to see each other. We were so young at the time; no car, no cell phone. She'd call my house, I already knew the routine: walk and meet up at the park. This girl was one of my only friends and she became my life. A day didn't go by where I didn't see her or hear from her. We shared so many memories and secrets with each other. There is still stuff that we know about eachother that no one else knows or will ever know.

Even during this close relationship, I never thought about the future with this girl. I didn't know what would happen to our friendship, but one thing that happened is we became even closer. The bond between us was unbreakable. She started making new friends and I did get a little jealous, but she always considered and put me first. I eventually became friends with her new friends as well, but they don't even compare to the relationship I had with her.

5 years strong. I look back at all the things that happened in those 5 years. Looking back at them makes me realize I am probably one of the most luckiest people alive to have her as my best friend. She told me once, "I don't give up on you and I never will." She was proven right. She is the only person in my life who has never gave up on me and she still hasn't. Through all the good and the bad I've been through in my life, she was always there right beside me.

Of course we've had fights and arguments before, who hasn't? It's what makes relationships stronger. We've seen each other cry, smile, laugh, yell, and scream. We've took care of each other during all those heartbreaks with guys and stuck up for each other with girls and drama. No matter if we knew that we were right or wrong, we've always had each other's back through everything.

I know as people grow older, they part. Sometimes I think about what would happen if her and I ever parted ways. I would be so heartbroken and upset about it, but I could never replace her. I know even if we never talked to each other ever again, she would always hold a very special place in my heart.

I could never be able to thank her enough for everything she has done for me. She has taught me what life is, what happiness is, basically what everything is. I don't know where I'd be today without her in my life. My life would be completely different if I never met her or even became friends with her. So this goes out to you. I love you more than anything, Julie Katan. You will always be in my heart. Forever.