All Good Things Come To an End

One of my earlier posts mentioned that "nothing lasts forever." I was proved right. That's right, something I thought could have lasted a lifetime ended about two weeks ago. Yep, the breakup. I want to clear it up, I do not blame him in anyway and it is definitely not his fault. Yes, he is the one who ended it, but I don't blame him.

We grew apart. There's really nothing you can do to stop someone's feelings; as much as I wish there was. Relationships are just like toys really. You find a brand new one, you leave the old one behind. You get sick of the old toy and there is a better one waiting for you there. Well, I was the old boring toy that was left alone in the dust. I know that sounds harsh, but that is the best way to sum it all up.

An old saying is "if you love something, let it go. If it's meant to be, it'll come back." I can wait for a while for him to come back, but not forever. If he moves on, I have no other option. It hurts so bad inside to know that the feelings are no longer mutual, but I'll be okay in the end. It also isn't good to force someone in a relationship, what is the point of that anyway? I get really upset thinking about it because I miss him so much; it shouldn't be healthy.

He claims to still like me and that he isn't over me. That may be so, but I know he has moved on. I guess I have to face the face that I have to move on as well now. There are plenty of other fish in the sea for this mermaid, but I wish he could be that fish. Oh well, there is nothing else I can do besides bitch and complain about the whole breakup. If it's meant to be, it will find it's way.

I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone

I don't really know how I should begin expressing my feelings towards this book. It was beyond words can say, honestly. For those of you that know me personally, I am a very picky reader. If there is something wrong with the book, I automatically won't like it. There might have been a few things about this book that bothered me, but it was the first book like that that I absolutely loved.

I Wanna be Your Joey Ramone by Stephanie Kuehnert took me about a whole week to read. I'm actually very surprised it took me that long to read. Once you are into the core of the book, you seriously can not put it down; you want to know the reasoning of everything. It is an on going cliff-hanger until the end of the book. This is the kind of book that is rare to find, not in stores. I mean the whole story line and idea of the book.

Though, this book in only fiction, I can relate each character to someone I know in real like. I think that is why this book is so special to me, I can relate to it in so many ways. Loss, heartbreak, pain, and especially the music. This book reminded me how much music means to me and will always be there for me. For awhile, I think I lost that love for music and I am more than happy that it is back.

I recomend this book to everyone who is involved in the punk scene. Even if you aren't, it is still an incredible book to read. You can feel Emily Black, the main character's, emotions. You almost admire her ways at the end of the book. For those of you that hate reading or just can't do it, I think you will finish this book and actually enjoy it aswell. It is for all those music lovers and the people who were ever involved in emotion abuse.